does anyone else feel this way?

i am so completely overwhelmed at this moment (well, perhaps not at this exact moment but that's because i have a glass of wine in front of me) nonetheless, why am i overwhelmed you ask? because it's time yet once again for christmas. i have a week left to finish my baking, my shopping, christmas cards, (don't worry, lizy, yours is on its way!) i have a week left to put up and decorate my christmas tree, maybe hang lights, and oh yes, don't forget trying to work, clean the house, and pay the bills. and i'm really trying hard here not to complain because i don't believe that is what i am doing, i suppose what my attempt here is to do is to try and understand this compulsion to make everything so perfect for christmas. i mean, it would be really easy for me to say, "what happened to the message behind christmas" but i would be guilty of losing sight of that as well as anyone.

i am guilty of that. hmm.

maybe it's just a part of being an adult (second glass of wine now in front of me, good stuff, mirassou's pinot noir, which i highly recommend) i just long for the days of christmas as seen through the eyes of a child, all that wide eyed wonder and anticipation. don't get me wrong, i love the time i spend with my family and friends on the day itself, i cherish the memories, appreciate my good fortune and all that. it's that i still find myself seeking more peace i suppose.

given that i don't make it back before christmas, the best of wishes to all.